Matthew De Martini

<em>...And God as an Entity</em>

...And God as an Entity

Artist Statement

The words in this piece read: “A black and white portrait of my paternal Grandmother, Lost in Prayer, highlighting the disappoint of my disillusion with the Catholic Church & God as an Entity." The piece seems very anti-religion at first glance, but it's also self-deprecative. It’s about how I feel like I’m disappointing my family (who are largely Catholics) by just basically defecting from their religion. I just can’t find it in me to believe in the same things they do, let alone in religion in general. I’m very afraid of their disappointment in my decisions to step away from religion, but faith isn’t really a choice. It’s hardwired into your brain and I just don’t share the faith that they do. I’m almost sorry for it…but it’s just not something I can follow or agree with totally. I still love and miss my grandma. I just feel if she were here she’d be somewhat disappointed in me, and I think that this portrait was a perfect antithesis to my views on faith and religion at this point in my life.

Matthew De Martini